Elliot Page remembers the moment he knew he was a boy

About five months after coming out, he's ready to share his story

Ellen Page attends The IMDb Studio Presented By Intuit QuickBooks at Toronto 2019 at Bisha Hotel & Residences on September 07, 2019 in Toronto, Canada.
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Back in December, Elliot announced to the world that he is transgender and now he's ready to share his full journey with us.

We briefly gained more insight into his story during an interview with Vanity Fair, Elliot revealed the moment he knew he was truly a boy (and it was from a younger age than you probably initially thought).

"I knew I was a boy when I was a toddler,” the Umbrella Academy actor said. “I was writing fake love letters and signing them ‘Jason.’ Every little aspect of my life, that is who I was, who I am, and who I knew myself to be.”

He went on to explain that he had always known who he was but due to societal pressures to conform to his given gender role, he was constantly being told he was wrong about his gender identity.

"I just couldn't understand when I’d be told, ‘No, you’re not. No, you can’t be that when you’re older.’ You feel it,” the actor described, then added he's finally feeling more like his true self. “It’s so beautiful and extraordinary, and there’s grief to it in a way.”

While Elliot is feeling more "comfortable and present" now that he's officially out, the star also says that it has poured over into other aspects of his life, including work.

“It’s hard to imagine that that’s not affecting the work, because, really, being present is ultimately what you’re going for–you’re just ultimately trying to crack open and be present and connect to the truth of the moment,” he said. “So I’m imagining the more I get to embody who I am and exist in the body I want to exist in, there’ll be a difference.”

We can expect Elliot to share more details about his experiences since coming out, especially as an activist for LGBTQ+ rights in Oprah Winfrey's newest Apple TV+ series, The Oprah Conversation. 

“The rhetoric coming from anti-trans activists and anti-LGBTQ activists–it's devastating,” he said in a clip of the interview he posted on Instagram. “These bills are going to be responsible for the death of children. It is that simple. So [this interview] felt like an opportunity to use a wide-reaching platform to speak from my heart about some of my experience and the resources I've been able to access–whether therapy or surgery–that have allowed me to be alive, to live my life.”

As a spokesperson for the trans community, Elliot also felt that given his platform, he has a responsibility to spread awareness, especially as trans youths struggle for visibility.

“It felt important and selfish for myself and my own well-being and my mental health,” he explained, “and also with this platform I have, the privilege that I have, and knowing the pain and the difficulties and the struggles I faced in my life, let alone what so many other people are facing. It absolutely felt crucial and important for me to share that.”

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Elliot first came out to the public in a heartfelt letter he posted on social media, which resulted in a flood of support from celebrities.

"I can't begin to express how remarkable it feels to finally love who I am enough to pursue my authentic self," he wrote.

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Noteworthy stars including actor Mark Ruffalo and actress Anna Kendrick shared their love and praise for Elliot on Twitter.

"Elliot Page’s words here are so beautiful and so eloquent, and he is reminding me that we can all be brave and joyful, even when things are scary," wrote Anna. "And this year especially, that reminder is such a GIFT. Sending them love/praise/gratitude/well-wishes etc etc etc etc."

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Now, as we begin to see Elliot flourish as his true self, we can't wait to continue following his journey once his interview with Oprah airs Friday, April 30th.

Rylee Johnston

Rylee is a U.S. news writer who previously worked for woman&home and My Imperfect Life covering lifestyle, celebrity, and fashion news. Before joining woman&home and My Imperfect Life, Rylee studied journalism at Hofstra University where she explored her interests in world politics and magazine writing. From there, she dabbled in freelance writing covering fashion and beauty e-commerce for outlets such as the TODAY show, American Spa Magazine, First for Women, and Woman’s World.