Oh Giley, I agree with all that has been said above. I know exactly how you feel. The best thing about PMK is no one judges, he tells us we will fall by the way side, but we dust our selves off and start again.
My confidence has taken a bit of a beating over the past 18 months, and some of my features have changed so to look in the mirror and tell myself I accept me and love me has been V V V hard. But with FF and MM support I have managed, and am progressing slowly.
Just so you know that first weight loss does come off quite easily but as you get closer to where you want to be, it slows down, so your body and it's chemical reactions can regulate themselves.
Please don't get dispondent, you are fabulous in fact we all are