I'm so pleased you decided to join our forum. Like PatsyW I don't feel I can be of much help to you at the moment, though there are lots of ladies on here who will be able to send some positive help to you and who may have been in the same situation.
I just wanted to bob in and give you a hug and let you know that there's always someone on here ready to listen...think of us as a whole new bunch of friends.