Hi again LisaR, I only posted briefly yesterday due to time restraints.
I do think at certain times of our lives we lose ourselves, we aren't the person we were in our 20s or teens, but may still have their aspirations buried deep. As Beau pointed out we become someones wife, partner or mother. And often get taken over by these roles.
Years ago I had a wonderful group of friends, but they often did exactly the same things to socialise every week. It often involved large amounts of alcohol, and very late nights.
I was in a serious relationship, and didn't like getting drunk every weekend. My mum advised me then that some friends we have for life, but some we grow out of. I didn't break friends with those girls and I am still in touch with them but I just don't join them on the town every weekend.
I think what I'm trying to say, you may not be the same LisaR you may have evolved, into a new LisaR who just needs a way to express herself.