Emilykate - you sound more positive today. Get some legal advice - do not let your feelings of guilt result in you making a decision that you will regret in the future. Many solicitors offer a free first consultation or the citizens advice offers free legal advice. Anyone who has gone through a divorce will say how tough it is. My divorce finally came through about a month ago, but I had been separated for 18 months. The toughest 18 months of my life, going from being a wife and mother who worked because I wanted to, to being a single parent, working because I have to. I think alot of it is realising that the one person you thought you could rely on and had shared so much with was not the person you thought they were. I felt so let down and cheated, but things do get better.