To all of you who are going through dreadful times. We all make bad decisions from time to time and sometimes we make our own situation worse. Didn't get to read your post Emilykate, but I'm thinking that you probably would benefit from seeking professional advice. I reckon it takes about two years to recover from divorce. How well we recover depends on how much effort we put in to our recovery. My mum said, accept all help that is offered and go everywhere that you are invited. It is a time of getting to know yourself and a chance to reinvent yourself. Its not easy but it sure beats laying down and dying inside. If I can get through it and come out of it with a better life, anyone can!