Hi Belinda, so sorry you're having such a tough time. I think at the moment even though you say you feel you have no emotions you obviously have or you wouldn't be in this dilemma. My advice would be to look after yourself first for a while. Your feelings will be all over the place after losing your mother and I think you need to grieve a whie before making any rash decisions. Hopefully things may seem a bit clearer in a while.