I feel a lot of emotion for your story Ozz, but find it also as Duffy pointed out hard to understand and grasp. I think, although my childhood was not a happy one, that we all lived in a strangely alien world where I was protected from all of these problems, and frankly didnt know much about anything to do with Drugs, and Sex.
The world is a scary place today in every sense of the word, and to have young teenagers now must be one of the biggest worries parents can have, I dont envy them at all.
My own son has given us not one worry in his life, but obviously as a teenager, he went through the usual teenager's angsts, but nothig in comparison to what a lot of parents have had to deal with. I count myself extremely lucky.
Duffy, I cant help but admire you in lots of ways, you seem to me to have true grit in every walk of your life.