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someone please tell me how do you look in the mirror and a)see what others see and feel good about it b) be happy that you have achieved your goal Until my mid 30's I was a size 10-12. I thought I was dumpy and fat. Looking back I realise that I was not and would kill for that figure again but at the time it made me miserable. As time went on so did the weight until I became a size 16 and KNEW I was fat. I avoided all mirrors and made excuses for myself until I managed to overthrow the the pig in me and fight back. I am now a size 12 and heading in the right direction but yes you have guessed it I FEEL FAT!!! The wisdom of age has helped me recognise that clearly I am not fat and I am reasured constantly by others but I SEE FAT. I know too that size 12 clothes are 'normal size'. I realise this has to do with my psychology. I do not have nor have I ever had an eating disorder but I do have this poor relationship with my body. I certain that I am not alone so ladies fo me and for anyone else reading this and thinking that's me too HOW DO WE LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE WHAT OTHERS SEE? |