hollyj, it's only 2 yrs since my mum passed away too and relatively speaking that makes it quite recent. Grief is a process - anniversaries, birthdays, and christmas are always going to be a challenge and a focus for your unhappiness. Let yourself feel what you feel but find new ways of remembering too. Learn to be kind to yourself - give yourself some breathing space around the times that you know you'll find difficult. Good luck.

Sweetpeasue