Linby, thanks for your reply,im sorry you have lost your mum as well,its very hard when your mum passes away isnt it,its good to know im not the only one who is still very sad two years on.I do have some happier times now,its just days like these i find very hard. Treetops,Thank you for your reply as well, i like your idea of doing something different,i will do that. Thanks again for your kind words,take care,x