Hi booboo, I am so sorry to hear your story, unfortunately there have been a number of ladies on the forum in your situation and I really feel for you going through this awful time. It must feel like the end of the world.
This forum is a starting point for you, to talk to people who really care and want to help you through this awful time. The ladies on here are so supportive and kind. You just want to join in with the posting and you will eventually find yourself smiling at some of the posts as they can be hilarious. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you just cant see it yet.
Forgot to say Welcome from me, look forward to talking to you!! Take care.................June xx