Now I'm in tears again at how you "strangers" are responding to me so kindly and positively. The sane, rational side of me knows this is just a wobble but I simply can't stop the feelings, which is why I'm doing this sort of thing (very new to forum inter-reaction and just want to make clear that the posting re African boyfriend/money loss isn't about my relationship, it's for a close friend!). Can't keep bottling it all up at work and for daughter, so may need to let go again here at some point.