Just wanted to say - I've said this on my PM to you too - if you would like me to phone the NSPCC and Refuge help lines first, just asking them what would happen if you phoned them yourself, I would be happy to do so, then I can 'report back' here to tell you what they said you need to do next.

I know it can be very scary to make the first phone call yourself, though do remember they get calls from people like you all the time, who are scared and depressed and at the end of their tether, so they are well able to cope with it.

All the very best - things can get sorted, starting today.
They really can.

Julie.