Thanks everyone for replying I really appreciate it and don't feel as alone as its good to know I am not the only one that feels the way I do! Things have gone from bad to worse unfortunately - I have been off work due to severe depression and although seen by Occ Health and my work being advised as not being fit to return to work at the moment I was informed if I do not return back to work by a certain date then I will be dismissed!!! I asked to be considered for redeployment but was pretty much told no, if I am not back then thats that! I am at my wits end talk about kicking someone when they were down! I am being seen by a CPN and undergoing Cog Behaviour Therapy and trying to get well enough to return to work and don't know what else they want me to do!!! Sorry to be all doom and gloom any advice would be appreciated!xx