So sorry to hear of your loss Wardrobemistress I agree with Wispa about the coping, it wasn't until I had Cruse councelling after my husband had died that I realised I was still coping and not getting on with the greiving, you are entitled to be very sad and upset, it will get better, you won't forget, but it will all get easier to deal with. Be very kind to yourself take things slowly and I highly recommend Cruse if you need support.