Nowcemsi,
I've just read your post and just wanted to cheer you on.
I'm going through this too (seperated for ten months)and, in the very early days just couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's there and thank you (and everyone else who's been through this) for reminding those of us who are going through it, that, actually, we do and can cope - even at 3 a.m. in the morning.

EmilKate - I didn't get to read your post but I'm sending you a huuuuge hug. Life will get better. Honest.