Emilykate, what an awful four months you have had, I know it is difficult to believe at the moment but things will get better. Although I have not been through all that you have, I have had a similar experience. Don't feel guilty, you did what you thought was best for you and your family.

I suspect your husband is probably very angry and upset with you at the moment, hence why he wants you to leave without the children. Let things calm down and then you may both be able to talk it through and decide what is best for the children. You must try and be strong for the sake of your children.

Take Care