How terrible Nowcemsi. I read it in just a few sentences but I know how terrible the pain is that you must have gone through. When someone gets out of all this and lives life again then it must help those just going through it. I have been with my OH for 37 years, married for 33. I can pinpoint at least 3 occasions when I desperately wanted to leave (and probably should have gone). Despite this we are still together. Marriage is no picnic.