Hi there
my mother died two months ago, and I am very emotional, looking at the family (husband two daughters well women now) and am thinking is this all there is? I am very much like walking water.

I put all this down to, decades of caring for the children and then my elderly parents until they finally died and now after putting myself last at my age I feel I am too mature to do anything new?

My advices are, do not go anywhere, because pretty much IT WILL GO WITH YOU albeit to a hotel room, a flat a bedsit
indeed whereever you choose

are you not trying to run away from IT? whatever IT IS

with regard to the sex thing - you are bereft and sometimes the libido just goes on holiday for a while
maybe you feel you have no right to embark on a physical relationship right now with your husband, why is it that men dont just cuddle us? a cuddle is always for them a precursor to sex isnt it ladies?