So sorry to hear your news. My father died 7 years ago in August this year and I still miss him........ but I am so glad I was lucky enough to have him as a father and that I have so many, many happy memories of him.

The first year after a death is really difficult, so many anniversaries to go through for the first time without him.

Take time, allow yourself time to remember and to grieve. It's ok to be upset, don't think you have to be strong for everyone. Life will get better and the sun will shine for you again.
Hugs Foxie x.