Hi lulubells, I 100% know exactly how you are feeling. I felt just like this for many years but my situation was a bit different to yours, as we both desperately wanted more children but it didn't work out for us, (we have a beautiful D who is 19 now who is the light of our lives and we both adore her.) We had IVF but it didn't work for us and the stress nearly broke up our marriage. I was depressed for a long time, and the physical longing for another baby was unbearable at times, but one day I just woke up and thought "What am I doing?" I have a lovely OH and a beautiful Daughter, I am so so lucky, so why don't I make the most and be grateful for what God has given me. And from that day on that's just what I tried to do. I won't lie and say it was easy lulubells, and sometimes my heart used to be breaking when friends or family had a new baby, but I learnt to cherish and be grateful for what I have. Some people are never able to have children lulubells, and I'm sure there are people on the forum who could tell you how hard that is cope with. You are so lucky to have your two lovely girls, Why don't you concentrate on being the best Mum that you can to them and enjoy every minute of their childhood, as it passes all to quickly. Lastly Lulubells, I'm sure you know that having another baby won't cure any problems you may have with your OH and it's not the answer. Sorry, I don't mean to be hurtful when I say that, but a baby won't make things better it will just pile more stress on both of you and that's not what's needed when things are difficult already. Sending you a big hug, I hope the above helps. Lisa. x